Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Sick at/of Work

I'm sick today, and I was sick yesterday. Yet, I'm still at work :/
I feel like I should at least be putting in an appearance, so that when any potential reference checks happen the most recent thing in my bosses mind isn't how much I've been gone lately.
Oh, and I put together a training wish list last night in preparation for my, supposedly, imminent performance evaluation. Most of the training revolves around preparation for leadership roles in several projects that all government agencies of my type must do, but that we haven't been doing much on in my office. I'd like to do these projects, and if I don't do them here I'd like to be prepared to do them elsewhere. Besides, then I have "direction and motivation" checked off for my performance review. suh-weet!

Oh, and I just passed by the door to my bosses office. She's taking a nap on her couch, second one of the day. It doesn't motivate me to stay here, either today or in the long term.

I just hope I get over this flu (which makes eating a no-can-do) so I can eat the cute little brussel sprouts I bought at the farmer's market on Sunday. They're no bigger than my thumbnail!

Three good things:
1. At least from my end I'm prepared to have a strong performance review.
2. I am working on convincing myself that I don't/won't miss Charles, even though I do.
3. It's likely I'll lose a few pounds by being all sick and not eating. Hooray for the "I'm sick" diet.

Friday, April 11, 2008

Thank Goodness for Board Meetings

I just got home from a 6.5 hour meeting...yes, on a Sunday...of the Executive Board, which I sit on, for the non-profit group I'm a member of, which took place in a city 1.5 hours from where I live. Whew!!

I'm the incumbent (and, after today, re-elected) local events organizer; it's something I'm pretty good at and thoroughly enjoy. It's also something I'm rather uniquely positioned to do, in that I'm the only person living in my city who is willing to organize an event each year :) I also help with events in the main city, the one 1.5 hours from where I live.

We held our annual planning session today. I filled in as Secretary, since that position is vacant right now. We hammered out the strategic plan for upcoming events, membership development, fund raising, and outreach today. We're a hard working gang.

I think I appreciated this event more than I would have at other times in my life, since my week at work was frustrating. I'm not appreciated for my ideas or willingness to try new strategies at work; whereas I am valued for those things in this non-profit organization, and I needed the ego-boost this week. Monday brought the event of being told at work that my list of ideas collected from the staff for agenda items at staff meetings had to be pre-approved by my boss before anybody else could see it. I work for a control freak, I'm slowly going crazy...she doesn't trust me to run informal staff meetings for chrissake, and it's not like she's there to run them herself most of the time...hence, why we've only had 3 staff meetings in the last 10 months.

Here's the touchy part though - I want to leave, but I'm participating in the wedding of one of my co-workers (who I genuinely like) in August...and our boss is officiating the wedding. I really don't want to burn that bridge before the wedding unless I really have to. So, I'll just mentally and emotionally prepare myself to move jobs for now, and sustain myself on the appreciation I receive for my community contributions. And, who knows, there might be a miracle and I could get everything I want out of my position after explicitly stating my requirements at my annual review in June.

I'll also go to yoga!!!!

Three good things:
1. Being on a non-profit board is great for my resume!
2. I won't have an extremely uncomfortable day at my friend/co-worker's wedding if I haven't quit yet.
3. I'll be nice and distracted when Charles leaves in a few weeks. :(